Today is just one of those days. The world around me is spinning and at the same time I'm twirling in my own seperate orbit. My insides are spinning out of control. So fast, that I'm lightheaded, and dizzy. I almost feel sick. I don't know if I can blame harmones for this unusual occurance, but I'm not looking for anyone to blame. Usually, I would be wondering who's fault it is that I feel abmornally. This time, however, I know it's nothing more than something. So what do I do about this. How bad did I want to simply sit in my bed and stare at the ceiling today? It didn't start out promising. But I couldn't land a landed thought due to the fact that I was floating. How did I start floating? It's been so easy to maintain consumed with the bullshit that I swim through on a constant basis, that I forgot that being of majority water, I do have the ability to float. So I floated over the day as if i were ignorant to anger. This time of the month is the easiest to be angry. But instead, I've acted almost adolecent. Becomming increasingly angry through out my life, I miss the days when I was unadulturated energy and sunshine. Unconciously today, I toyed around with the notion of me being numb to all consuming anger and, instead, being simply numb. Well not entirely numb, because no matter how much medication I take, I continue to have cramps :/. But beyond the physical, I wasn't in mental anguish. Still, something is plaguing me. I have no idea what and I woke up feeling like something bad was going to happen to me. It is now 5:55pm and I am still alive. Now whether or not I make it to 6:00 pm is not up to me. But I hope I do. I haven't been arrested, no one has died to my knowledge, and overall my day has been pretty boring on the external. Internally, it's a whole other story. But I don't know how to put it in words just yet. So i'll just say that it's just one of those days. The world around me is spinning and at the same time I'm twirling in my own seperate orbit. But I guess that's just me....
Go figure.
